Music recommendation

I'm not exactly a music buff, and I don't usually listen to songs in my free time like most people do. To be honest, I find it kinda boring, and I get distracted easily. I'm more of a visual person, so I prefer watching music videos - but only if they're super viral or come highly recommended by someone.

Lately, though, I've discovered this amazing music genre: phonk/funk. I'm totally hooked! It's been on loop for weeks, and I just can't get enough. Whenever I need to block out background noise or pretend to be busy like you know when you don't wanna speak cause social battery gets dead and the other person wants to talk, earphones and music come in handy at times like these. this playlist is my go-to. 

I usually study in the library zone after classes, and let's be real, it can get pretty distracting there if it's crowded. So, I pop in my earbuds and hit play on my phonk playlist. Trust me, it's a game-changer! The energy is infectious, it's got a similar vibe to EDM and metal music. Earlier I used to listen to white noise to focus but then I got boared with that and found this. White noise is good too it's nostaligia for me cause when I was in 10th grade I used to play the unreachable server on radio app on my phone cause spotify had too many adds so it was kindof my hack to focus. 

I've got a bit of a habit of slowing down when I'm solving physics problems like I get tired after 30 or 40 minutes, but this music keeps me in the zone. If you're looking for a boost to get you through your studies or just need something to get you pumped up, give this playlist a try I am planning to add these to my workout playlist too.(as if I workout lol)

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3DJ6LZawvKtnNJ2GVZnrpt?si=dlUDSjjAS4-GDgJm7yRNfA&pi=uKOyz7Y2R_uak

 

IT ENDS WITH US BOOK+MOVIE REVIEW

 SPOILERS ALERT ⚠

I recently watched " It Ends with Us, "the book adaptation movie, and as someone who has read the book, I can be a biased but accurate judge of it.

First of coming to the book I read last year around the same time in bits and completed it in a month or so. The story had an interesting plot that revolved so much around high school butterflies in the stomach feeling and then the letter to Ellen DeGeneres that was very fun to read as if we were reading our own diary. Lily's sudden encounter with Ryle the extremely handsome and absolutely hot neurosurgeon and then the flow of the story and their romance with twists of violence can make the reader dive into the story. The flashbacks in between with Atlas add depth to the characters. I personally felt the writer wanted to make us biased for the character Ryle cause whatever bad thing he did it still made me want Lily to be with him despite all the abuse. But then her leaving him at the end made the readers feel proud and gave a way that it is possible to take any kind of stand if it's for themselves even if they love that person with everything.

The plot was good but the writing of Collen Hover could have been better. It is an easy read like a book for 7th graders. So if you are someone who loves to read but finds it tough to understand a lot of grammar then go for it. However, this book was overhyped when I was in school so I never read it when I had free access to it in my school library.

Now coming to the movie, In one word I'd say I was not satisfied and I say this for all the adaptation movies I don't understand why can they not make movies feel similar to the books. They never satisfy our imagination. The actor who screenplayed Atlas was not at all what I had imagined in my mind as was Lily. 

I know it's tough to have everything concentrated into a 1hr40min movie but they shouldn't have left the lines that Atlas said to her" When life gets you down you know what to do, just keep swimming Lily" These lines added the essence to the her and his character. The intimacy that they shared was not shown or rather felt in the movie. Although the flower shop was very accurate and the scenes and locations were very pretty better than my imagination.

If you have time in hand and you like to read these kinds of drama/romance books then go for it but if you want a lot of depth then it's not going to give you that. Watch the movie only if you have read the book (that's just my opinion cause there are many good movies so why waste time on a mid-movie Or you could be a Blake Lively fan then that's justifying cause she was amazing with her skills, She's always been, her acting made me forget how she was completely different from Serena in Gossip Girls. 

P.S. I was a fangirl for Serena in 2020.

     

    

#starrynight

You know someone once told me they hesitated to commit to a six-month wifi plan, So much can change in that time, right. I got you now mate. 

Same with me and friendships, hard to commit cause when you get to know them more you start to back off. I'm really bad at choosing the right people to hang out with. I've gotten to a point where I'm scared to even try making new friends. It's like, I put myself out there, and more often than not, it backfires.

I tried again this time with a girl I thought would match my vibe. We clicked instantly like old friends reunited. Our academic sync was uncanny - same scores, same interests. We'd study together, help each other out, and hang out occasionally. But soon, the inconsistencies started to grind me down. One day she'd be all enthusiastic and over-sweet, and the next, she'd completely flip. No explanation, no warning. It was like an emotional drama. With time her every move annoyed me. Her way of talking made me feel like I was degrading myself. Her way of making stupid comments made me feel nauseous. I feel like a narcissist saying this but yes I did feel she was too tacky. 

I couldn't handle the rollercoaster. The hot-and-cold routine was exhausting. So, I made the call to cut her off totally. No more drama. Maybe I'm a bad person for her to leave without explanation, and it hurt when someone did that to me, but now I know why they did. It's hard to be fake-nice and friendly with someone whom you start disliking. But I don't wanna be a jerk cause if you know there's this saying 

"Be careful whose toes you step on today, they may be connected to the ass you have to kiss tomorrow."  

Solitude is alright, yaar. Being alone, free from others' expectations, is actually liberating. No pressure to put on a smile or pretend to care. Just me, myself, and I. 

What just happened?

Ugh, life had other plans! I twisted my ankle while crossing the road thankfully I avoided a bigger injury but now I'm stuck in bed for 10 whole days. The doctor says I need to bedrest for atleast 10 days or it won't recover.It's a hairline fracture.

At first, I was really bummed about missing classes and needing help with even basic things like using washroom. But you know what? It's made me realize how much I take for granted being able to walk around and do my own thing. Seriously respect for people who can not walk. It's been 24hrs since all this and I am exhausted.

 I'm trying to stay positive, though. I'll use this time to complete my syllabus as much as I can and take my test online on Sunday. No point feeling sorry for myself. All I can do now is just work to make things better.

What's funny is my mother blaming this all on "buri-nazar" and not on me being careless... lol!

This is my first time dealing with an injury, I have never had any major injuries in the past and I thought I would never experience one cause I'm a strong girl physically but then this happened. 

 I'm learning to focus on the good stuff.

Fingers crossed I'll be back on my feet soon!

Delulu is not the solulu

I've definitely had this mindset before where I thought, 'no matter what I do, I'll make it work.' In school, I'd often slack off until exams came around, and then I'd suddenly feel confident that I'd ace it without putting in much effort. And you know what? It usually worked out. I was always a good student without having to try too hard. I even did really well in classical dance performances when I was younger.

Looking back, I think I got a little too comfortable thinking I was naturally good at things. Maybe it was just because I was in a small circle, but it worked for me at the time. I never thought to push myself to compete at a higher level and higher stages with more competition or try harder and compete in scholarship exams or olympiads. 

That mindset stuck with me through 10th grade and even high school. I'd put in a bit of effort and still get good grades. But now, with this current exam, it's a whole different story. No matter how hard I try, I'm not seeing the results I want. It's like my luck has run out or the competition is just way tougher.

Btw this issue has a name it's called Dunning Kruger effect. It has a name so I guess more people experience this.