More than just a feeling

One moment, I act like I don’t care about the world — playing the cool, indifferent brat. The next, I’m sobbing over a video of a Muslim man helping little kids living on the footpath. It’s happened more than once, and every time, it hits me deeply.

There’s this strong urge in me to help those children, but I can’t. I’m not in a place where I encounter people like that often. I don’t go out much, and I don’t have the money to help. Even if I did, it wouldn’t be my money — it’d be my parents’.

Those kids have nothing, and yet they keep surviving. Meanwhile, I have everything anyone could ask for. My dad is even ready to spend a crore on my education. But that just makes me feel like I’m wasting all this privilege if I don’t do something meaningful with it. I want to earn skills and money not just for myself, but to be able to help anyone who ever needs help. That’s what I want from life.

Sure, today I might be crying over not having friends or over some temporary heartbreak — but somewhere out there, someone is crying because they’re hungry… or because they have no one they can call family. And if I keep wasting my time despite having every resource imaginable, then maybe I don’t deserve to live the life I’ve been given. In these 2 years I have successfully wasted so much money just because of my carelessness. Just because I couldn't manage my life my time while these's some poor kid who has never experienced what studying in a coaching feels like. 

I want to make full use of what I have. I want to become someone who doesn’t hesitate when they see someone in need. Someone who can help — not just financially, but with genuine intention and compassion.

I remember reading The Diary of a Young Girl years ago. Anne Frank wrote, “No one has ever become poor by giving.” It’s been 6 or 7 years since I read that line, but it’s never left me. And I know it never will.

My aim of getting into a medical college is because of my greed,my greed for that dream doctor life that I have always imagined for me. But I wanna connect that one part of my Mbbs journey to helping the ones that truely need help and what better place to be born than India if you wanna do social work.