Yaar, too many major changes are happening and it’s getting overwhelming.The saddest part was when that friend who talks to me daily said, “Aghh, now I won’t be active daily because college is starting from August.”My college will start late — I still have a month or more left.I know dynamics change with time, when you get to know new people you become busy,But why do I always end up feeling sad? Well mostly people send reels to stay in touch as I do with most of my friends but still talking and sharing fresh tea on calls is irreplaceable. I think it'll change as we both find new friends at our diff colleges.
I’m also scared to leave my house. Just thinking about how it’ll be only Mum and Dad — the two of them alone in the big house — is so depressing.I will have people around me, but they won’t. I’m the chatterbox of the house, and suddenly it’s going to go completely silent.
Thinking about all this just tears me up.
Also, sharing my room with one or two people I don’t even know will be so stressful.
I’ve had a separate room all my life, and now I’ll have to literally share my washroom and space with random people? That honestly freaks me out.What if they’ll be loud or too nerdy or too extrovert. Umm I don’t know if I'm an adjusting person or not cause I have never shared space with anyone. I'll try my best to cooperate and not act too picky cause I don’t wanna have bad terms with anyone. My friend's roomate as she says is a bitch and they even had big fights over pity things and honestlg I don’t want any of that so I'll just keep my mouth shut to be a bigger person.
I can’t handle all this change at once.
I know everyone goes through this and it’s “normal,” but still...
I just hope nice people find me in the future, and I can be good with them too.
This period is exciting, this is what I used to crave as a NEET aspirant. yet it’s also so damn stressful.Being on my own will be fun, I know that.But a part of me still wishes my parents could be around.
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