Just another day but a bit better ☆♡◇♧♤

Ahahah I have never been so happy for random strangers dude I used to watch " Not just a doctor" on yt when I was in 10th and was I obsessed with them I used to follow Rujuta and Naineesh everywhere. They were the epitome of friendship. I was so inspired .. The bond they had as batchmates was so cool. Since then I thought they'd end up together but then they were so subtle with everything.

Finally now today I saw the marriage thing and lol I have never been so happy for strangers on the internet. These people are the reason I love this profession so much and I am always thriving to have what they have. 

So many creators that I used to watch in 2022 earliest days are graduates now and some are even getting married woah and I'll be starting medicine this yr such a cycle. I have so much planned out just can’t wait for everything.

Today when bhaiya met me after 6 months the first thing he says is " Hello medico attitude me baithi hai" Hehe did I blush, wanted to always hear that. 

Arghh I just hope I don’t jinx everything and end up spoiling everything. I don't trust my luck at all just want all the blessings of the universe now for things to go right.

And I finally complete a show that too is a special event otherwise I always leave things in between unwatched. Loved the songs from the episodes...

1. https://youtu.be/HkVWqyK2Lmo?si=mT-uIX1jeLM5Tg-w 

2. https://youtu.be/HchmoMexFYk?si=GVhP_rdQqcKp_jgB

3. https://youtu.be/w0nhYCzLMkY?si=X_WqRaIEdRaYHnx4

to come back later♡♡

Cribbing about life—— HOLD BACK

 As I am growing older I have come to realise that one should not crib about their life in front of others while meeting them or talking to them. It's just a more mature step and will help you keeping lots of bonds intact.

I used to frequently start ranting about lots of things like studies and life problems in general near the people I was comfortable around and it made me feel better, lighter and it was very subconscious from my side. But then once I was talking to one of my friend and he tells me how mentally draining it becomes when his girlfriend rants about her problems to him  whenever they talk, and he told me how it made him feel heavy and really killed the vibe.

That hit me.

That instance really made me think about stuff. Don't I do the same when I get comfortable around people, but do I ask them if they are ready to hear all that? While venting to someone you are indirectly transferring the negative energy to them and people are not ready for all that. Everyone is dealing with stuff they are tired of and it's not an "OMG, WHY THIS HAPPENS WID ONLY ME?" world, 

it's more of ——"THIS HAPPENS WITH EVERYONE, WE JUST DON'T TALK IT OUT LOUD" world.

Keep your trauma- dumping to yourself and use non emotional tools like––– Ai, a journal or maybe just an alone time walk on the terrace moon gazing to analyse and sort out your thoughts and issues.

It will save you lots of judgement and you will come up as a person who has their shit sorted out. 

Venting can make you feel better but the image it gives is of an untidy person with lots of emotional baggage that no on wants to deal with except you yourself.

Also most of the times we already know the solution to our problems we are just willing to gain sympathy from others. It depends on you, who do you want to become someone independent and mature or someone who's just looking for a shoulder to cry on.

What womenhood feels like?

"How I love being a woman."

It’s a line from Anne of Green Gables, and honestly, I’ve never related more.

Being a woman is something else. It’s not just a feeling—it’s a whole vibe. Something only we get. Something that can’t really be explained, but if you’ve felt it, you know.

The female body? So damn beautiful. I can’t even imagine not having this body. The curves, the way it looks, the way it feels. Life without it? It’d be boring. Straight up boring.

Sometimes there's this weird heat boiling in your lower belly, your feet feel warm yet stretched out and cramped, and then out of nowhere your pelvic muscles contract so hard a tear rolls down your face. Your nose is stuffy, your head aching with migraine,your fingers are tingling and, your breasts are sore, lips cracked,the whole body sweaty and sensitive and there’s this warm blood trickling down your thighs.

That's what being a woman feels like.

Everything, all at once.

The one organ responsible for literally creating life can make you feel like the most powerful person on Earth—and then suddenly like you want to disappear under your blanket and vanish.

The smallest pin prick can fold your whole body in half, and yet this same body can carry a human for 9 months and push it out. Like… push it out. Think about that for a sec.

It’s insane. It’s a superpower. And no, not everyone gets to have it.

Women go through so much. We feel everything with a level of intensity—physically, mentally, emotionally,and still manage to go through our day like nothing’s wrong. But ask us to notice a change in the boyfriend's behaviour? Nah, that's where most of us fail. 

Our hormones can mess with us big time. One second you’re fine, the next second you’re crying over a "not so emotional scene" from a comedy movie. Ovarian and pituitary hormones can legit make you feel like you’re tripping on alcohol. Moods swings, anger, nausea, all at once.

But still,not many people talk about this.

Being a woman is messy and loud.

And I wouldn’t trade it for anything else.

I don’t know how men feel but I don’t think it's anywhere close to this. The men who have women close to them tend to become gentle and sensitive.. that's what female touch is all about it can make the ruggest human soft. 

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wrote this because I was feeling low and I was sad because of the way I felt right now. I don't think I was able to describe the feeling but yah typing all this made me feel better and while typing I realised how I adore biology so much and maybe in future I can be a gynac or a child doc... It'll be fun to be around babies.... can't wait to study anatomy in first yr.. Arghh time is passing by so slow I want this vacation period to be over. I'm done relaxing. I want the hectic back it's fun when I have too much work around and no time to kill.